Post by unanimous on Mar 24, 2010 13:20:09 GMT 3
beginning june of this year, i will stop making new friends. that's the 3rd quarter resolution of 2010.
since most of the people we've met have already gone and or moving by june of this year, no more friends for the rest of our stay here. will just limit social contacts to our building's security and maintenance people, occasional run-ins in the elevators, restaurant staff and karwa drivers. no more lunches, no more movies. kalas! tis kinda depressing....hmmmm..... but not really.
i am kinda living in a bubble here now. good bubble. i no longer complain about preposterous or atrocious things ive heard from someone. ive no more petty disputes to settle, ive no negative stuff to share in the house. in fact, the only negative realization i've had of late is that: Warrick from CSI cant act. OMG...i was in denial for a long time, but after reviewing 5 seasons of CSI, ive come to the conclusion that he can only muster 5 facial expressions...one expression per season...and that somebody from season 2 tried to give him bangs!LMAO!! OMG!! afro with bangs...imagine that.
so back to the daily grind...the talking people surrounding me of late aside from my husband and friends on weekends are the cast of House and Boston Legal, and Hannah Montana..and wizards of waverly place...and people from cash in the attic... then some people on the books i try to read. i still keep in touch with the daily events here in doha...my husband brings me home newspapers now...because yes im still boycotting the coffee shops downstairs, but i kinda lay low from asking la cigale to giftwrap my cakes. coz it takes a while and usually, we are running late and no time to wait for them to giftwrap.
something a friend of ours said a couple of weeks ago kinda hit home. upon sharing my schedule these says, she mentioned something like: "my views are gonna be like subjective"...they've always been anyway, i just have a better excuse now. she meant like everything will be from my interpretation alone and no one elses. how to clarify....it's one dimensional? well why not. i am devoid of outside actual interaction. i dont have to listen to anyone that has a potential to piss me off. i dont have to regularly check myself from physically assaulting anyone. i have not listened to anything that can drive me to self-harm. i can turn off the tv when i want, close the book when i want. i dont have to listen to anyone...except the ones i work with from across the world. and that i can stop and start when i want as long as i meet deadline. i have listened enough anyways. and ive heard enough already. it is really more peaceful, less strenous to read. i dont have to compose my face to suit anyone. did i share that somebody actually bitched at me for smiling at work? it happened 2x. one in dubai, and another time here last year. i actually have to put on a bitch face whenever i would run into this woman...i'd be damned if i look down or somewhere else...straight ahead...grin in check ;D
some people would say judgmental. i'd say, some people just dont need a lot of clues in order to deduct.
i have always felt that i had lived a sheltered life. i came to realize it after school, when i started working and meeting more people from more varied walks of life. people that i thought only exist in books or in awful tv series and soaps...they actually exist in real life...and usually worse. and this has always shocked me. and i want to be continually shocked by these occurrences. i dont ever wanna be blase about these sort. i want to be able to always say: "wait...you seem familiar...Cartman, is that you?!!"
someone once asked me why i watch these teenybopper tv series, gossip girl of late. it's because i would like to be able to say: "i would never do that, that is soooo vanessa and lame!!....and i am 35 years old, so i shouldnt be doing a vanessa really. or a Donna or Andrea from BH 90210 for that matter...*shiver*...but you'd be surprise how much there is of that in the "mature" world.
you know what's great about people you meet on the internet? you actually learn more about their thoughts than you would...say on a bar encounter. plus it is more disturbing to see a poser, face to face.there is more time to bullshit online than anywhere else. you will never know about everything about anyone anyways...so it's interesting to know what they bullshit about. sometimes, it is more telling. if they are psychos online, there's a great chance they are too in RL. and you know if there's a person missing, chances are you can find them in facebook or other networking sites. i heard there's a growing number of teenagers complaining about their mom's facebook accounts!lol!
have you ever spoken to a karwa driver? it's kinda neat. topics on your short ride is usually funny and interesting.....coz you know you might never meet again anyways. i like these chitchats. today i met a guy from kenya. i asked him about his favorite food from his country. apparently it is called: ugali...sounds like ooohgahlee. it is made from their special corn, that has been dried then grounded. if i understood it correctly, this corn flour...you boil. that's it and it's good. maybe it's an acquired taste.
We've met people who have grown weary of Doha and left or are leaving; have lots of things to say but have to check themselves from uttering them and the effort alone can cause a nervous breakdown. i heard that it is nice here but when you go outside of here, the difference is actually....palpable. that you can actually forget about the money you earned here and appreciate more other things. i shouldnt be surprised coz afterall ive lived elsewhere far longer than here...and yet i am. yeh, i am surprised easily and i am told i have the memory of a gold fish. have been here 3 years and might actually look at 3 more....but hopefully that is it. siberia next destination. someone told me recently that they have overstayed their welcome here. theyve been here...13 years at least. i once read somewhere that one should not grow comfortable; to grow, one must look for challenges. it is true i think and ideal, but my problem is i always find ways to be comfortable! and im a creature of habit and comfort. i am reluctant of changes but once change is there, it always turns out kewl. there's a 90s david bowie song called sunscreen that had a line that goes:
"Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft."
i think that applies here.
since most of the people we've met have already gone and or moving by june of this year, no more friends for the rest of our stay here. will just limit social contacts to our building's security and maintenance people, occasional run-ins in the elevators, restaurant staff and karwa drivers. no more lunches, no more movies. kalas! tis kinda depressing....hmmmm..... but not really.
i am kinda living in a bubble here now. good bubble. i no longer complain about preposterous or atrocious things ive heard from someone. ive no more petty disputes to settle, ive no negative stuff to share in the house. in fact, the only negative realization i've had of late is that: Warrick from CSI cant act. OMG...i was in denial for a long time, but after reviewing 5 seasons of CSI, ive come to the conclusion that he can only muster 5 facial expressions...one expression per season...and that somebody from season 2 tried to give him bangs!LMAO!! OMG!! afro with bangs...imagine that.
so back to the daily grind...the talking people surrounding me of late aside from my husband and friends on weekends are the cast of House and Boston Legal, and Hannah Montana..and wizards of waverly place...and people from cash in the attic... then some people on the books i try to read. i still keep in touch with the daily events here in doha...my husband brings me home newspapers now...because yes im still boycotting the coffee shops downstairs, but i kinda lay low from asking la cigale to giftwrap my cakes. coz it takes a while and usually, we are running late and no time to wait for them to giftwrap.
something a friend of ours said a couple of weeks ago kinda hit home. upon sharing my schedule these says, she mentioned something like: "my views are gonna be like subjective"...they've always been anyway, i just have a better excuse now. she meant like everything will be from my interpretation alone and no one elses. how to clarify....it's one dimensional? well why not. i am devoid of outside actual interaction. i dont have to listen to anyone that has a potential to piss me off. i dont have to regularly check myself from physically assaulting anyone. i have not listened to anything that can drive me to self-harm. i can turn off the tv when i want, close the book when i want. i dont have to listen to anyone...except the ones i work with from across the world. and that i can stop and start when i want as long as i meet deadline. i have listened enough anyways. and ive heard enough already. it is really more peaceful, less strenous to read. i dont have to compose my face to suit anyone. did i share that somebody actually bitched at me for smiling at work? it happened 2x. one in dubai, and another time here last year. i actually have to put on a bitch face whenever i would run into this woman...i'd be damned if i look down or somewhere else...straight ahead...grin in check ;D
some people would say judgmental. i'd say, some people just dont need a lot of clues in order to deduct.
i have always felt that i had lived a sheltered life. i came to realize it after school, when i started working and meeting more people from more varied walks of life. people that i thought only exist in books or in awful tv series and soaps...they actually exist in real life...and usually worse. and this has always shocked me. and i want to be continually shocked by these occurrences. i dont ever wanna be blase about these sort. i want to be able to always say: "wait...you seem familiar...Cartman, is that you?!!"
someone once asked me why i watch these teenybopper tv series, gossip girl of late. it's because i would like to be able to say: "i would never do that, that is soooo vanessa and lame!!....and i am 35 years old, so i shouldnt be doing a vanessa really. or a Donna or Andrea from BH 90210 for that matter...*shiver*...but you'd be surprise how much there is of that in the "mature" world.
you know what's great about people you meet on the internet? you actually learn more about their thoughts than you would...say on a bar encounter. plus it is more disturbing to see a poser, face to face.there is more time to bullshit online than anywhere else. you will never know about everything about anyone anyways...so it's interesting to know what they bullshit about. sometimes, it is more telling. if they are psychos online, there's a great chance they are too in RL. and you know if there's a person missing, chances are you can find them in facebook or other networking sites. i heard there's a growing number of teenagers complaining about their mom's facebook accounts!lol!
have you ever spoken to a karwa driver? it's kinda neat. topics on your short ride is usually funny and interesting.....coz you know you might never meet again anyways. i like these chitchats. today i met a guy from kenya. i asked him about his favorite food from his country. apparently it is called: ugali...sounds like ooohgahlee. it is made from their special corn, that has been dried then grounded. if i understood it correctly, this corn flour...you boil. that's it and it's good. maybe it's an acquired taste.
We've met people who have grown weary of Doha and left or are leaving; have lots of things to say but have to check themselves from uttering them and the effort alone can cause a nervous breakdown. i heard that it is nice here but when you go outside of here, the difference is actually....palpable. that you can actually forget about the money you earned here and appreciate more other things. i shouldnt be surprised coz afterall ive lived elsewhere far longer than here...and yet i am. yeh, i am surprised easily and i am told i have the memory of a gold fish. have been here 3 years and might actually look at 3 more....but hopefully that is it. siberia next destination. someone told me recently that they have overstayed their welcome here. theyve been here...13 years at least. i once read somewhere that one should not grow comfortable; to grow, one must look for challenges. it is true i think and ideal, but my problem is i always find ways to be comfortable! and im a creature of habit and comfort. i am reluctant of changes but once change is there, it always turns out kewl. there's a 90s david bowie song called sunscreen that had a line that goes:
"Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard; live
in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft."
i think that applies here.
